Going through some things

So, Thursday my baby sis called me to tell me my Uncle passed away. I called my Father right away, and he started to cry. This is a man who NEVER cries. Freaked me out completely. Apparently, my Uncle passed in his sleep and my Aunt found him that morning. I just couldn't believe it...the last memory of my Uncle was not a good one, or necessarily a recent one. His life has been tragic. Of course it made me think about what kind of impression we leave with our loved ones once we're gone. It also made me realize how that old cliche' is true: Tomorrow is never promised. It's been hard for me, since I'm super emotional right now. I feel like I'm a prism and every one's energy is flowing through me...if that makes any sense. Like I take on the feelings of my loved ones. I can feel my father's anger, guilt, sadness, and love. While I loved my Uncle, because of the distance between us and the way he lived his life it was not very hard for me to accept his death. No, let me stop. I haven't completely accepted it. I still question as to why MY Uncle had to go. He was turning his life around...but now it's over. On the other hand, my best friend just had her baby today. Today!!!!! Her water broke this morning and within 5 hours her life has changed. She is no longer Chelle...she's a mommy now. I'm so excited for her, but I'm really hurting for my father. I hope to see the both of them this weekend.